Burn Party

     So I decided, tonight is the night. Over the last week, I have been reviewing things in my life, looking at old photos and such. I realized that I had been holding on to way too many negative things from the past. Some of those were pictures of me in drunken stupors. Others of me with men I had been in relationships with. I started wandering what was I holding onto this for? I decided that that was somehow a barrier to me moving on with my relationship with God. So tonight, a "burn party" I had. Well, me and one very special friend. We both decided to quit holding onto things of the past and move forward. I do have to say that it felt rather liberating. Surprisingly, I was not torn up about removing these items from my life. I actually thought I'd have difficulty parting with them. I mean really, some of that stuff was 13 years old and still holding on.

     This is just one more step in removing the "trash, the junk, the unimportant, the misery, the pain or whatever you want to call it" from my life. It's amazing how the capacity to be and help others grows astronomically when you get over yourself. At least that's how I feel about it. So far it has been a fabulous week, and it's only just begun. It's been a good year. I can't remember the last time I woke up with regret. The last year has been such a wonderful journey into the depths of who I am.

     It's actually pretty amazing when you start finding out not only who you are, but also that you actually like yourself. And if you’re lucky enough, you find quite a few people who really like you too. Not for the partying and drinking, but for the listening, the caring, and the talking. I'm sure some of you may think that is a foreign concept for me and guess what, it was foreign to me also. But I'm finding that as the days go on the person who used to be slowly disappears as the person I want to be starts to emerge, and guess what? I'm loving it!!! God Bless!